Hi baby

I haven't written anything to you, yet. because I haven't known what to say. I wish i could explain to you how you have already transformed mine and your poppy's life just by growing in the womb. We found out some great news today, your dad is O- blood type. That means that I don't have to worry about whether or not to get the Rhogam shot!! It's very exciting, baby. I have tried to make all the best decisions for you while you have lived inside of me. i have to admit I have eaten fast food four times this week, though. My bad, dog. Hope the monosodium glutamate isn't punching holes in your adorable little brain. We don't know if you are a boy or a girl because i didn't want to get an ultrasound while you were inside of me. Dr. Piro, the kooky scientologist naturopath, doesn't advise it just in case it causes hearing problems for babies and you will soon learn that I follow Dr. Piro's advice with almost cult-like devotion (except for the fast food, of course, she certainly does not advise that). What else? I didn't get the Rhogam shot because it is possible that that isn't good for you, either. There is a high mercury content in the shot and 62% of autistic kids have rh- moms. That is interesting, not conclusive, but something to think about. I won't be having any drugs when I deliver you, either. I want you to enter this world with your eyes wide open and I want them to stay that way for as long as possible. I am having you underwater so the trauma will be less on you. If you are a boy, i am not going to have you circumcised for that same reason. I am going to do the very best I can for you to help you grow up clean and strong and loved. Your dad is totally on board with all of this. You have transformed our relationship from one where we were both fighting very hard to maintain our separate identities to one where we just want to be kind to each other and to you. I haven't eaten any refined sugar during the whole time you have been inside, either. I think it has helped me to have a really easy pregnancy (other than the first 3 months of being insane).
Baby, I never want to be one of those moms that messes you up in any way. I don't want anyone to hold you back or hurt you, including me and your dad. I like to think you will have a good shot at life being here with us. We will teach you how to be kind but strong and how to take care of the earth and other people on it. I am using cloth diapers on you and I am going to start getting our vegetables from a local organic coop every sunday starting in September. I hope I can do what you need me to do. I think your dad and I together are a great team and we will be able to love you and protect you.
I know you are coming to this planet for a special purpose and i know that it is our purpose to let that come through without trying to influence the outcome because of what WE think is right. You will be our greates teacher to date. Oh, by the way, if you are a boy, your name might be Grandpa. I know it is weird, but it is really important to your dad that this is your name. He thinks it is a great tribute to all of the men that have come before us on both sides. As far as I know, if you're a girl, your name will be Lola and if you're a boy, your name will be Grandpa Giacomo. We will call you Jack for short, no one will have to know about the Grandpa part. You will find that people become very angry when they encounter things that are different. We can't wait to meet you!!
I love you.
Mom